I’m on leave today, Monday (yey!) because I had my warts removed last Saturday and had to refrain from washing my face for 48 hours. Good excuse for staying at home and doing nothing.
But I feel a bit restless. I feel the need to be busy. Sometimes, when I spend a day at home watching tv or looking after my kids, I feel like I have not been productive, that I could have done better with my time. When on vacation, I can not totally let go of thoughts about work or other matters. I have to struggle to be in the moment, to just enjoy the now.
So I googled “the need to be busy” and gathered the following nuggets of thoughts:
“An idle mind is not just boring, but also unhappy.”
“We all live on two things: time and money.”
“If you’re rich, it’s time that is scarce. If you’re poor, it’s the money that is scarce.”
Which got me thinking. I am definitely not rich yet I never seem to have adequate time. Big problem?
Two years ago, I resigned from my job because I felt I never had time to do the things that mattered. I took up CMA and for the first two months felt relaxed and content having no work to worry about. Apart from the CMA class every Saturday and case studies I had to answer, I had time for myself and for my first son. On the 3rd month, I started looking for a job because my savings were dwindling. We are not rich so it was not an option to be jobless indefinitely.
At that time, fresh from a stressful and demanding job, I was looking for something that promised work-life balance. It didn’t matter if the salary was lower as long as I am given the luxury of time to be with my family and to pursue other activities.
And God answered my prayers. I had a job that allowed me a day to work from home. I got to clock out earlier than usual (except during month-end close). I had time to start my blog, read books, run with my husband, cook my baon, be with my son.
Of course, the job had its own issues and I got frustrated and felt that there was no room for career progression and development. I was given the luxury of time but I felt bored and yearned for ‘prestige’. Maybe, I was proud then and not ready at that time to give up on a ‘career’.
To cut the story short, I am back at my old job. 😀
And I have yet to resolve my old issue of striving for work-life balance. This is my ongoing quest for harmony.